Wednesday, August 10, 2005
i'm confused.. saw francis 2dae.. he told mi a lot of thgs.. has he changed? shld i trust him? seriousli speakin.. i still hv no trust on him.. he cheated me.. he lied to me.. tell mi stories.. no way man.. i cant be soft hearted.. wat had past had already past..
ming's bro called me 2dae.. he found sth n wanna pass it to me.. shld i go get it? or shld i juz let it go? it'd already been yrss...
dear i miss u..............................
dun u think i'm livin in dis lifeless world?? nope.. shld be.. i think i hv no live.. everidae project project n project.. kinda of sick of it.. like wat rainie had said.. wat we r doin r juz e' same as e' previous project.. same as all e' project we did.. site analysis, layout, plantin plan.. blah blah... argh... e' onli hol for mi is juz term break.. dun u guys think i hv no life? argh............
project.... wrk load is gettin more n more.. lesser time for more wrk load.. can die sia.. slpless nite again at last week of project? or even earlier?
site analysis shld be finish by last week.. bt.. i'm still doin it.. wat e' hell.. modern retro my concept? or rejuvenent? argh.... dunno lar..
can someone help me? i dun think i can make it animore... wat if one dae i die? i spent my whole afternoon readin all e' letters i kept.. memories.. *cries* i juz cant believe tt some of my frenz already left me..
readin e' letters gv mi back more memories.. n at least wen 1 dae i leave.. i noe e' memories will follow me..
y is there so mani illness? y is there so mani organs? y cant they juz tell mi wat happened? wif juz 1 scan...cramp.. is now part of my life.. vomit too... i'm feelin weaker n weaker everidae.. human wif a mask? m i? hu noes.. u nv noe wen i'm havin e' pain...n when e' pain is comin..
~fernny~ cramp...................................
caught a falling star @ 8:34 PM